Never be the same...

Today I had to tell my best friend and the guy I love (Jordon Ray Palmer) goodbye. He is moving back to Blanding (where he is from) to finish up school. I didn't think I was going to be sad about it...but I am. I know eventually things will be okay, but right now, it's just hard. I am going to miss him more than I can say. He has been so amazing! And I have been so blessed to have been able to have him apart of my life for as long he was...well, he still is, he will just be in Blanding...so yeah. haha So many things happened that forced me to grow up and learn while being in this relationship. Things were said that I will never, ever forget. No one has ever meant as much to me as he does. Normally i wouldn't be so open and sharing this on my blog...for the world to read...but the world deserves to hear that he is an amazing person, who would do anything for me. He cares about me so much. And I met him when I had been starting to lose hope in finding anyone...he showed me I could love someone again. And it was such an amazing feeling knowing I could. He means the world and more to me. He has taught me so much! I am so blessed to have him in my life. I know that we are going to stay close friends, and in a couple years see where things are at...I wish he could finish school here so we could be together...but all I can do now is trust in the Lord with all that I have that things will work out the way they're supposed to. :) I know I met him when I did for a reason. We have both helped eachother more then either of us thought. Hopefully I will see him sooner than later. :) He is awesome beyond words! Well, now I get to go to work and try not to think about it...wish me luck. (Never be the Same by RED is why i titled this the way I did, cause I will never be the same after loving him)

NEVER BE THE SAME By: RED
I know you, who are you now?


Look into my eyes if you can't remember

Do you remember? oh!



I can say, I can still find

Your are the only voice my heart can recognize

But I can't hear you now, yeah



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

When I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same



And how can I pretend I never knew you

Like it was all a dream, no!

I know I'll never forget

The way I always felt with you beside me

And how you loved me then, yeah!



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

when I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same



You led me here

but then I watched you disappear

You left this emptiness inside

And I can't turn back time

No, stay

Nothing compares to you

Nothing compares to you

I can't let you go

Can't let you go

I can't let you...



I'll never be the same

Not after loving you,

not after loving you, no



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

when I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same

I can never be the same

I will never be the same



I just can't walk away

No I can't walk away...from you