The things on my mind lately. Last night i watched as my last best best best friend of like...10 years got married, how happy i am to have all my friends getting married, and as stoked as I am for them, it kinda bums me out too. Yeah, yeah, i know my time will come. But, its weird, because apart of me feels like there is something i need to do before i get married.
And, actually....i have the opportunity to possibly go to Florida and do the Disney College Program...I don't know for sure what i'll be doing, but yeah. I would be gone for 5 months(Jan-may) Downside....my sister will be having her baby, i may or may not have my job when i come back(i haven't even talked to my work, so i don't know FOR SURE, but i would want my job back when i got home) And, it really freaks me out to get up and leave my life, my family, my friends, my job....literally....MY ENTIRE LIFE to go there...but at the same time, I'm not dating anyone...(shocker...when am i ever? haha) So, atthis moment, that isn't holding me back... but I think i need to go, i think it would be good, and i think it would be fun. I guess i am just nervous, scared, i feel lost at this moment. All my old friends I hardly see, but i love my new friends( they are all younger than me, but hey, keeps me young!haha) And i love them ALL to death. But i do miss my old friends all the time, it just isn't the same now that they're ALL married, i feel like i need someone to fit in with them, how sad is that? I know that is not how they see it...but thats how i feel..
Well, i have some serious decisions to make in the next little while...and i'm not looking forward to the process of it all...working so much and going to school is kicking my butt!! But, right now, my life is going pretty good! I have tons of amazing people in my life, and so many friends i can go to for anything! :D I am grateful for all the blessings i have! I am happy with life at the moment!
2 comments:
Jent! I think that is awesome and you should TOTALLY go for Florida!!! What an amazing experience that would be! DO IT!!! Especially if nothing is holding you back!
You should go!! That would be such an amazing experience!! Now, don't get me wrong, we would all miss you so so much but, really, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity!!
or... you could go on a mission? HAHA I hope you know that I am joking when I say that, imagine that we are back in Nauvoo and my name is Dixie.
I love ya Jent!
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