Never be the same...

Today I had to tell my best friend and the guy I love (Jordon Ray Palmer) goodbye. He is moving back to Blanding (where he is from) to finish up school. I didn't think I was going to be sad about it...but I am. I know eventually things will be okay, but right now, it's just hard. I am going to miss him more than I can say. He has been so amazing! And I have been so blessed to have been able to have him apart of my life for as long he was...well, he still is, he will just be in Blanding...so yeah. haha So many things happened that forced me to grow up and learn while being in this relationship. Things were said that I will never, ever forget. No one has ever meant as much to me as he does. Normally i wouldn't be so open and sharing this on my blog...for the world to read...but the world deserves to hear that he is an amazing person, who would do anything for me. He cares about me so much. And I met him when I had been starting to lose hope in finding anyone...he showed me I could love someone again. And it was such an amazing feeling knowing I could. He means the world and more to me. He has taught me so much! I am so blessed to have him in my life. I know that we are going to stay close friends, and in a couple years see where things are at...I wish he could finish school here so we could be together...but all I can do now is trust in the Lord with all that I have that things will work out the way they're supposed to. :) I know I met him when I did for a reason. We have both helped eachother more then either of us thought. Hopefully I will see him sooner than later. :) He is awesome beyond words! Well, now I get to go to work and try not to think about it...wish me luck. (Never be the Same by RED is why i titled this the way I did, cause I will never be the same after loving him)

NEVER BE THE SAME By: RED
I know you, who are you now?


Look into my eyes if you can't remember

Do you remember? oh!



I can say, I can still find

Your are the only voice my heart can recognize

But I can't hear you now, yeah



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

When I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same



And how can I pretend I never knew you

Like it was all a dream, no!

I know I'll never forget

The way I always felt with you beside me

And how you loved me then, yeah!



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

when I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same



You led me here

but then I watched you disappear

You left this emptiness inside

And I can't turn back time

No, stay

Nothing compares to you

Nothing compares to you

I can't let you go

Can't let you go

I can't let you...



I'll never be the same

Not after loving you,

not after loving you, no



I'll never be the same

I'm caught inside the memories

The promises, our yesterdays

when I belonged to you

I just can't walk away

Cause after loving you

I can never be the same

I can never be the same

I will never be the same



I just can't walk away

No I can't walk away...from you

OH MY GOSH!!! If you have not heard this song, you had better find a way to listen to it. (it's the second to last song on my playlist, if you feel like listening to it) This song is the CUTEST song EVER! And it reminds me of someone I REALLY care about!!! And I just wanted to share it with everyone. OH!!! MY!! GOSH!!! I have been listening to this song non-stop! LOVE IT!!

Time--By: Cute is what we aim for

Oh, oh...

The roads are wrapped around your waist

They lead me place to place

I take trips from hip to hipIn fact,

I've made a career of it

I always thought the left was your strongest side

But when it comes to you, I can't decide

It's only a matter of time

I need the product of your fears

In the form of tears

It's the only way I can survive

It breaks my heart to see you cry

And baby, it's the only way I stay alive

Green eyes, blue skies

Natural disasters when she cries

Green eyes, they're mine

It's only a matter of time.

Oh, oh...

Like the climate

You never know what weather you'll get

No denying you're the habit that I can't quit

It's only a matter of, mine.

I need the product of your fears

In the form of tears

It's the only way I can survive

It breaks my heart to see you cry

And baby, it's the only way I stay alive

Green eyes, blue skies

Natural disasters when she cries

Green eyes, they're mine

It's only a matter of time.

It's only a matter of time.

You're tainted, I'm shaking

I hope you turn around in time

Tide's changing, I'm waiting

You and I are one of a kind

(You're changing)

I've been a both of our fears

Over my sore ears

I still can't pick my favorite place

(don't make me)

The contour of your lips,

They match your continents

And I still love the way that you taste

I need the product of your fears

In the form of tears

It's the only way I can survive

It breaks my heart to see you cry

And baby, it's the only way I stay alive

(stay alive)

Green eyes, blue skies

Natural disasters when she cries

Green eyes, they're mine

It's only a matter of time.

(only a matter of time)

It's only a matter of time.

25 Random Facts About Me

I'm not going to tag anyone...if people want to read this they can, but I don't feel like tagging anyone...so if want to do yur own for fun! Please do! Cause I would LOVE to read it!

1. I really should be doing math homework and studying but instead I'm doing this...
2. I LOVE music, it's literally playing whenever possible! If we had bacground music to our lives, i would be the happiest girl alive!
3. Cake is my favorite dessert above EVERYTHING else! (just party cake with rainbow chip frosting!)
4. I hate when people save their gum...and then chew it later, just get a new piece...
5. I love to write! Whenever i'm going through a lot and my head it just full of thought, i just jot down everthing going on, and sometimes things come out marvelously and sometimes they don't.But i love doing it!
6. I am an organized/clean person...things have to be in a certain way or it bugs me.
7. I am OBSESSED with always having clean hands.
8. I love to take pictures!(and yes, when i'm bored..i'm one those that does take them of herself...lol)
9. I can never have one favorite thing...i always have to have at least two or three
10. I love my family!
11. I have the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for!
12. I secretly like watching Hannah Montana...although, its not secret anymore. haha So i love the disney channel...big whoop!
13. When I'm nervous or feel stupid, i hum, or start counting my steps or get worried the world is looking at me.
14. I wish it was summer all year round...i'm sick of snow.
15. I have been dancing for almost 19 years.
16. I love helping people...espeically little kids, it gives me joy to see them learn something new.
17. When i was little i used to sneak into the cupboard and eat brown sugar.
18. Sometimes I follow others advice before a think about whats actually best for me.
19. I wish I could do hair, i have like three or four hairstyles...lol
20. I am going to be 24 this year
21. I have a song for just about every life trial i have been through, because that song helped me get through it.
22. I want to be successful in SOMETHING!
23. I loved to draw until I took a drawing class...now...not so much.
24. I make music videos with my best friends...well, we used to.
25. I love learning about people

Dance Dance...

On Sunday's after dinner sometimes our family will play a game.(not very often)...This week we whipped out High School Musical 3 Dance Dance Revolution. Nickole and I both got it for Christmas, so we decided it might be fun for everyone to play. Braydon, Logan, and Sawyer had a BLAST!


It was SO funny to watch them have so much fun!

Sundance Film Festival 2009

So...as traditon my friends and I always go to the Sundance Film Festival in Park City every year! This year, just a few of us went, cause others bailed and decided that next weekend would be better, so I will have a few pics next week! Who did we see? We saw Cuba Gooding Jr. and Spencer and Heidi from "The Hills". No pictures of anyone, but we still had fun! We got into an exclusive party at this Louisiana Film party. Chasten got us some sweet hook-ups since that's where he's from. We almost got to see T.I. perform at "Harry-O's" but tickets were like $250. Supposedly it's one of his last performances since he shot off a machine gun and is going to jail...hmmm...that was smart of him. I don't know the details though. Well, last night was TONS of FUN!! And next week will be fun too with all of my other friends there too!

Us at the party!

I don't like strawberries, but i wanted this picture anyway.

Me and Alysse outside the party on the balcony.

Me and my bling.

Gangsta what, ya'll?

Oh School...Part 2

So, it is safe to say that I officially have THE most boring semester EVER! Today I just had Geology. Yes, I sat in between two guys, who weren't ugly I might add. haha And my teacher was funny, kind of dork, but she was funny. The best part of class was when she had a picture come up on her slide show thing, and it was one of those "inspiring" quote posters with the picture and then below it, it read Persistence. Normally it would been followed with a quote about being persistent. Her version was a guy chasing after a girl in the sunset and it read..."Persistence: Let her go, man!" I laughed...as did the class. haha We talked about all kinds of other geology related stuff...boring...but I know it will get more interesting as we go along. That was todays fun!

Oh School....

So...I started a new semster today. Am I excited you ask? Well I should be but to be honest, I already want it to be over and it's been one day. haha How sad. Hopefully tomorrow will be more exciting. The classes I'm taking this semster are three fold: English 2010(Intermediate Writing) Math 0990(I won't say what math this is...haha) and Geology 1010 (basic geology) Not one fun class.

It all started with English. I went to my classroom as planned and saw a note that said that it was changed to a different classroom on the level above.I still had time so I wasn't stressing. I walk in and its a whopping 80 degrees in this teeny classroom. Oh my! I was sweating! We had to say our names and something interesting about ourselves. I don't know what's interesting about me...so I said I love music, and I dance! haha That was all i had. As my teacher explained everything we would need to do in his class...I thought to myself, why didn't I take an easier teacher? lol The only plus side to this class is there's a few cute guys...and that is definately motivation for me! lol (not that I'll talk to them, but ya never know, right? haha) After I left I had 10 minutes to make it to my other class ACROSS THE ENTIRE CAMPUS!!! I was so stoked to make that walk let me tell you. haha I made it...I was a couple minutes late, which means I was stuck being on the front row.oh man! I thought. I hate the front.

Oh and let's not forget that my car is still being fixed so my dad gets to take me and pick me up at school for these first couple days. It's amazing how much I miss having my car. The freedom of it. It is nice not to have to worry about about finding a spot in the nightmare they call a parking lot, but still...I feel like I'm fifteen. I am so passed that stage. CAR!!! Get done being fixed. haha Well, that was today's fun!